Release your Inner Power

 

“I’m street, so look both ways before you cross me!”

 

I had to post today’s quote because it reminds me that I have that whole other level inside me that kicks in when I really want to accomplish something.

Do you know what I mean when I say that? Do you have that smolder inside you that lies dormant until someone tells you that you can’t do something or tries to stop you from achieving your goals.  I didn’t realize how strong mine was until I really sat and thought about what I wanted to be when I grow up.  I know, seems kind of crazy, but you could call it mid-life crisis or just a heightened awareness, but I definitely reached the point in my life where I didn’t feel fulfilled or happy with what I was doing.

I am sure some of you can relate to this in some way.  Is there an area of your life where you are not feeling fulfilled?  It could be your job, it could be your home life, it could be school…there are many ways to feel unfulfilled.  So what do you do when you find yourself in this place?  The simple answer is to change it…but that’s not always feasible.

I found myself in this place a few years ago, so I knew that I had to make a change.  I had to decide if I would be happy if I was in the same place in a year or even 10 years.  Obviously my answer was no, so that’s when I knew that I had to think about what I did want to be doing.  It took me some time to ponder this question, months even, but when I came to the realization that it was important to me to help people, I knew what I had to do.

That’s when I called on that inner gangster & determination that I knew was inside me because I had used it many times before.  The easy part is knowing what you want to do, the hard part comes when you have to slog away day after day, being consistent, undeterred and motivated (even when you don’t feel like it).  This is when the grit comes in. That part inside you that doesn’t doubt you can put in the work necessary to get it done.

 

 

One of Brandon’s favorite shows is Shark Tank, and recently I have been watching it with him.  I have found it so interesting to see these people that literally started with nothing, come up with an idea and grow that idea sufficiently that they are qualified to make it onto a show on TV.  I love seeing their belief in what they are doing, I love seeing them overcome fear day after day – because that’s what I know I must do.  It helps me know that I’m not alone, and that the only way anything happens in this world is if we believe enough in it and in ourselves to make it happen.

So what if, inside you, there is this inner bad girl with grit just waiting to help you accomplish your dreams?  What if I told you that it is there – you just need to find a way to harness it.  It’s no that it’s easier for some than others, it’s just that some will do whatever it takes to make it happen – they believe that much in themselves.

I may be that girl that eats organic foods, believes in the environment, believes that people and their feelings are more important than ideas, but I still love to listen to rap music.  I still love to be walking the line of conformity, because I know that when I am open, loving and real, that’s when I am able to feel love and fulfillment in my life.

Sometimes I feel the need to show the outside world that I am not just a pretty face, but I have an attitude and I’m not afraid to use it…that’s why I chose today’s more casual, get stuff done, inner bad girl look 😉

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Rock Your Own Style

“Be a voice not an echo!”

No matter who you are, where you’re from, your style says a lot about you.  Whether you use your style to stand out or you use it to blend in, somehow your personality seems to shine through in what you’re wearing.

Style is not something that is as exciting to some as it is to others, but even if you don’t care about all the latest trends or styles, my guess that there is still some piece of you that wants to look great and make the most of yourself (even if you don’t know how to do that).

 

With anything there are always going to be some that seem to have an affinity to be more stylish than others, but it doesn’t mean that because it doesn’t come naturally to you that you can’t learn it and become better at it.

Just the fact that you are reading this blog tells me that you do care…so how do you translate that into taking some action?  Looking at how others style things (whether that’s in a magazine, in a blog, on Instagram or Pinterest or on TV doesn’t matter), just seeing the realm of possibilities when it comes to style, knowing where you can buy things, and how to piece together an outfit will become easier and easier over time.

I have known people over the years that buy certain designers because they think that if they are buying that designer means they are being stylish – the problem with that is that I have found that not everything a certain designer works for any one person.  They are catering to the masses and therefore some styles are not going to suit your body type, coloring or personality.  Also seeing a mannequin in a store wearing a full outfit again doesn’t mean that the full outfit is going to work for you.  The key to styling any outfit is to know beforehand what your body type is, figure out which styles work for you so that you kind of have an idea what will and won’t work for you.  Then comes the fun part, you can start looking at different colors, patterns, adaptions on the styles that work for you and finally accessories & shoes (or if you’re like me, the shoes usually come first).

I do like to check out certain stores, follow their latest released styles and see which ones will work for me. I do know what I love, and have an idea how I want to put a piece together into an outfit before I buy anything.  Knowing what you have in your closet is always helpful because then you don’t get home and realize you already have something similar to what you just bought.  I have been loving that mustard yellow color recently and after I went on a recent shopping trip, when I got home I realized I had pretty much just been buying things I already had (no wonder I loved them so much 😉  )

 

 

My outfit today features a custom made T shirt from a fellow blogger in the UK (don’t you just love it), some amazingly comfortable and chic palazzo pants that I recently got from DownEast Basics (one store I love to check out because they have affordable, modest and stylish pieces), a cute little cross body bag that I picked up in NY and some sandals from last year.

You can shop the pants by clicking here
You can find the blogger and shop the Tee by clicking here
You can find a similar cross body bag by clicking here
You can find some similar sandals by clicking here
You can shop some similar sunglasses by clicking here

Whatever your personality, don’t be afraid to express it through your style.  Your comfort zone didn’t start out as it is now, at some point in your life you weren’t afraid to try something new…what have you got to lose?  Be You!  Be Unique!  Be Bold!

Happy Humpday – hope your week is fabulous!

 

 

A Good Hair Day can just make a GOOD DAY!

“Good hair days make me feel like I can rule the world!”

Have you ever noticed how different you feel when you’re having a good hair day?  I have always loved having hair long enough to be able to put it up and style it differently (even though sometimes I try to style it the same and it just doesn’t work out 😉 )

After the terrible “hair” incident I had last year when my flat iron was turned up too high and fried the front of my hair, so much so that I ended up cutting bangs which I immediately regretted and started to grow out…I have really started to pay more attention to caring for my hair.  Especially now that my hair is longer, it requires more moisturizing, more protection and more care than ever before.

 

 

Have you ever done something to your hair that you immediately regretted or just wondered what you were thinking?  About 10 years about I decided I’d had enough of longer hair and decided to cut my hair into a pixie cut…and then to color it platinum blonde.  It was definitely a noticeable, stylish hair cut, and I was in love with it for about a year, but the bleaching burned my head a couple of times and I quickly started to become bored.  It’s a good thing that my hair grows quickly because when you have a style like that it’s really hard to grow it out.

Now I try not to use a flat iron or curling iron too much and I use heat protectants to prevent another “incident” like last year.  I love to pull my hair back and experiment with new styles of wearing my hair up.  My favorite way to find these styles is of course Pinterest.  The tutorials, the pictures and the ideas never disappoint.

In today’s post my hair is in a simple chignon and this is my “go to” style whenever I need to pull my hair back quickly.  I know how to make it look great in a matter of minutes, and this is what I turn to on mornings when I don’t have as much time to get ready.  Do you have a “go to” style for your hair?

I tend to post more about dressier outfits than casual, but this look is one that I pull out quite frequently for running errands, weekend casual dress, baseball games and so on…it’s comfortable, easy and still stylish.  Don’t think that sweatpants and a T shirt can’t still be cute…the camo print and wide legged cut make these sweatpants really cute AND comfortable!

Do you have a favorite way to wear your sweat pants & T shirts?  Comment below…I would love to hear.

You can shop some stylish sweatpants and T shirts by clicking the links below!

 

 

Denim & Ruffles

“Either you run the day or the day runs you”

 

Do you ever have times when you are feeling run down or have very little energy?…You know, when you’re a mum, have a full time job, as well as write a blog the world doesn’t seem to turn just right if you can’t keep everything going.  Not that I kid myself enough to think that I am the only one capable of doing everything (at least not anymore), but I guess I just have a hard time letting myself take time off things I know need to be done…

So, my question to you is…what gives you the energy you need to accomplish the things you need to do? Have you ever noticed that some days when you get home at night you feel more tired or have a distinct lack of energy?  I notice that when I am focused on too many things at once, all it really does is sap my energy.  With that being said, I want to talk about multi-tasking, and how it could actually be hurting you!

I have always worn my ability to multi-talk like a banner and shouted to the world that I could do so many things all at once, and I had it all handled.  But over recent years (and it could be because I am becoming more mature – or at least older), I have noticed that I feel exhausted, overwhelmed and just down on myself for not being able to do all the many things that are on my list everyday.  I used to beat myself up about not being as productive as I want to be (and again, these are the expectations that I put on myself), but I don’t do that anymore.  I have learned that the best ways for me to accomplish the many things that I need to do are by making sure I follow these simple guidelines:

  1. Don’t over-promise and under-deliver – spreading yourself too thin is only going to cause you a ton of stress.  If you know you have a lot of your plate, DON’T take something else on!
  2. Shift focus – instead of trying to multi-task and split your focus between multiple tasks, set aside time for each task you need to do and focus 100% of your attention at that time on that ONE thing!
  3. Delegate – this is a huge one for me…I had a hard time letting go of control, and would almost rather ineffectively complete a task than allow someone else the opportunity to grow and help. Even my kids are delegated certain tasks that I used to take care of, and while they may not love the idea, it is teaching them and they are growing from it.
  4. Take breaks – taking a 10 minute break every few hours where you can do something that will rejuvenate your energy will allow you to make up much more time because you won’t be burned out.
  5. Smile – even when you’re frustrated.  Smiling can physiologically change your body and allow you to be more productive than you ever thought possible.

 

 

I have found that smiling is something I didn’t used to do too much, at least not when I was by myself…but I am working on implementing this into my life more.  I look for things to smile about, I imagine people I love, traveling, and many more things and it’s funny, somehow that smile just seems to happen.  If you haven’t already tried it…perhaps it could work for you too!

Of course, it’s much easier to smile when you feel good about how you look or what you’re wearing.  Even people I know that aren’t into fashion or don’t care too much about the latest trends, still like to make sure they look good.  Feeling good on the inside very often comes from what we perceive on the outside! Do you remember being a kid and getting a new pair of shoes, dress, or some article of clothing?  How did you feel when you wore it?  Did you think you were the “bees knees” – I know I did!  The same is true as we are older, but I think we may not be in tune with it as much because there are so many other things going on in our lives…

Even sickness and lack of energy is no excuse to not have something to smile about 🙂

This Yellow top and denim skirt definitely made me smile, especially because Yellow is such a happy color anyway…you can shop some similar pieces below

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Dress up your Jeans

“Successful women have their feet on the ground, they just have better shoes!”

If you have been reading my blog for a while you may notice a common theme – I really love to dress up.  In fact, dressing down is something that is still a style of dressing I am experimenting with, and learning…

Today’s post is really about how even when you dress down or go for a more casual look, you can still look put together and classy.

I found these jeans in the Zara sale – and since Zara is one of my favorite stores, and since the store in Utah isn’t yet open, I am always checking out their app (it’s a dangerous thing) for new styles, and most importantly, for things that you aren’t going to see many people wearing around town.  Embroidered jeans are a really cute way to dress up your jeans, but with the turn up, I liked these ones even more.

 

You may ask yourself why dressing up is important to me, so here’s my little secret:

I LOVE to dress up or add a little extra touch because it’s what makes ME feel good.  I like to know that when I walk out the door (unless I am going to workout, planning on just running errands, etc.) I am put together and that when I glance myself in a store window, or in a mirror that I am going to be happy with what I see.  It may sound vain, but the truth is that when I feel good about how I look it’s weird but I definitely act differently.  Because I feel good, I tend to project an air of self-confidence and even charisma that seems to make other people react differently to me.  So the little secret is that I dress for ME and only ME…not that it isn’t great to hear compliments, but for me to love me and how I look is the most important thing.  Obviously, I do like to do things that Brandon will appreciate too…but ultimately if he liked something that I didn’t like to see myself wearing, I couldn’t do it.  In fact, I have found that he likes the things I like because he is reacting to how I feel about myself.

Have you ever experienced this phenomenon?  Have you experimented to see if people react differently to you when you feel good about yourself and how you look?  You should really give it a try, I can promise you will notice a difference!  And let’s put it this way, what have you got to lose?  At the very worst, you will feel good about YOU and that’s the most important love you can nurture…because then you’ll just have so much more love to go around 🙂

It may sound cheesy, and I wouldn’t ever tell you to do something that I haven’t tried myself.

BTW – these jeans were on sale and they are all gone, so I have found some similar ones and linked them below…

Hope you have a great Friday…

 

 

 

Look for the Good

 

“Maybe the best thing to do is to stop trying to figure out where you’re going and just enjoy where you are!”

 

For those of you that know me, you will know that I absolutely HATE rain!  I think it must be the fact that I grew up with so many rainy days in England that I truly would be OK if I never saw rain again.

For my birthday this year we planned a trip to the Big Island of Hawaii (the only island I haven’t already been to – at least of the most popular ones), and we brought the kids.  We have had a wonderful few days here already, and today we planned a trip to the Volcano to go and see everything there.  We have heard stories of lava flows, views of the crater making the sky glow and walking on the lava to see the lava underneath glowing.  We had heard that there might be a storm coming in later in the day, so we set off early.

As we drove to the wet side of the island, all was great until we hit the town of Hilo (which by the way is the rainiest city in the United States with an average of 22 days a month of rain).  As we approached the National park, the rain became harder and stronger, and by the time we made it to the visitor center we pulled out our raincoats just to make it across the parking lot without drowning.  We found out some information about things that we MIGHT be able to see without all the rain and cloud coverage getting in the way.  We explored the inside of a lava tube, got really soggy and ran back to the car.  We then drove down below the clouds and actually found a place to walk out onto the lava without rain and had fun looking at petroglyphs.

All in all we had some fun times, with lots of driving in a wet dog smelling car because of the all the soggy clothes!  We then decided to go to the famous Black sand beach to hang out for a little…well, that didn’t happen.  As soon as we got out of the car, the skies opened up again and we got soaked.

Now, with all this rain coming down, things not looking how I might at one time have imagined they should look, this is the time I might have started to lose my cool.  Instead, I decided to take a different tactic.  I actually didn’t let the weather and my inability to control it, stop me from having a fun day with all my boys. A miraculous thing happened…I actually enjoyed myself.  I found myself not worrying about my hair looking crazy, I didn’t get worked up about being wet, I didn’t try to hurry the kids back into the car so we could hurry and get out of there.  I actually just let it be what it was!

 

Brandon and I talk all the time about “fighting with the weather” and how I get worked up or disappointed because I have expectations about how the weather should be!  I realize this is probably a crazy notion, but it is still something I fight all the time.  Have you ever been so excited about a vacation, an outing or an occasion, so much so that if the weather when you get there is not what you imagined it would be, you start to become frustrated or disappointed?

Brandon and I were in Hawaii last year for my birthday and every day was amazing EXCEPT for on my actual birthday.  I woke up happy until I saw the rain pouring and I actually felt a little depressed.  I found myself thinking “why did it have to rain today”?  For those of you that have never thought any of these things, I promise I’m not crazy, it’s just an example of something I like to try to control but I absolutely can’t.

The idea of managing expectations and letting go of control works for so many other things that I thought I would share with you my experience and how I am still only learning, but I am definitely working on it – which is the first step, right?

 

Back to Reality

 

 

“One small crack does not mean that you are broken.  It means you were put to the test and did not fall apart!”

I had the most amazing Thanksgiving with my family up in Midway, so much so that when we came back down to our house and started getting ready to go back to work and school today, it seemed almost depressing.  When I woke my 2 younger boys up this morning, one said he had stomach ache and the other said he had so much fun with us this last week that he didn’t want to go to school but would rather hang out with us.  I have to admit that when my alarm went off I had similar thoughts and even went to a place of thinking what could I do to rearrange some things so I could just stay home.

 

Needless to say, I got up, got dressed in a great power outfit, and went to work anyway.  It makes our family time so much more precious when I realize that my boys loved it as much as I did, and that even though part of their stomach issues and sadness this morning was more about not wanting to go to school, I’ll take it 🙂

 

So how do we beat the blues when we have to come back to reality after a vacation, the holidays or even sometimes just a weekend.  I have found that the only way that works for me is to think about the things that I do love about what I’m doing and what I am doing them for.  For example, while I do love sales and having great relationships with my clients, I go to work so that I can buy the things I want, live in a nice home, travel a lot and not have to worry about whether I can buy something that I like.  I also focus on meeting with my clients (who are also my friends) and let that drive me more than the monotony that I have to go through with paperwork, etc.

 

It is hard to explain this kind of thinking to younger kids, but I do believe that my boys are starting to get it at least a little bit and realize that by going to school it means that they can get a good education, which will translate into a good job and great pay (obviously with work to get them there).  I definitely have to remind them quite often, especially since they can hardly remember to brush their teeth sometimes, but it’s worth it, and only the best habits are formed by repetition and determination.

 

We enjoyed the most amazing temperatures and weather this past weekend, but last night the winds came in and now the rain is here, which I know is soon going to turn to snow.  We truly will be in our Winter Wonderland here in Utah in no time…which is perfect for Christmas and the Holidays (see, I am being positive 😉 ).

 

 

As you probably have already heard me say before, rain is my least favorite weather so I have to work really hard at not letting it get me down.  The prospect of a lovely warm fire, hot chocolate, and snuggling under a blanket with the boys is what gets me through.  I am a firm believer in energy…I believe that there is always a transfer of energy between people, and if you surround yourself with negativity or positivity that will eventually rub off on you.  A trick that helps me when I have had a bad day is to hug my husband or kids for a minimum of 20 seconds, until I feel that transfer of energy and love which will erase most bad feelings from the day.  Admittedly I sometimes have to hold them there for that long (20 seconds seems like eternity for a 10 year old), but they are mostly accommodating to their crazy mum!

 

What tricks do you have to help you through days when you just don’t want to be doing what you have to, or those days when things just seem to go all wrong?  I would willingly try anything new to help me, and maybe some of mine will work for you!

 

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Chunky and Comfy

 

“The secret to great style is to feel good in what you wear!”

 

I am always looking for new ways to express my style, so when I see someone wearing something I like, or I see something in a magazine, it immediately makes me think “could I wear that”…

 

I have found that while I like to explore lots of different styles and outfit combinations, not everything works for ME…and I don’t care who you are, there is always that is just going to look better on someone else.

 

The boots that I am wearing in this post are a pair that I saw a friend wearing and I fell in love with them – so I tried them and found that I like them too.  I find business or more dressy styles easier for me to express myself, so finding something that is perfect to add to my casual wardrobe, I’m all over it.  I grew up in England in the 80’s and Dr Marten’s were huge with “skin heads” and “mods” but they were never something I had liked myself.  I preferred more feminine styles, and I feel like Dr Marten’s got this style right!  They added a touch of femininity to target a whole different consumer – and I definitely fall into that new category of consumer.  Even though they are still chunky, I feel like the heel makes them more my style, yet they are still practical.

 

The Black distressed jeans are one of my favorite pair, mainly because the fabric is so soft, and they work with so many different outfit combinations.  The Blue sweater I found at H&M and just fell in love with the color…

 

I believe that even when I dress casually I like to keep that femininity in my outfits, and there are lots of ways to achieve that.  You can add a soft sweater (similar to this one), you could add a touch of lace, wear a soft brimmed had or cozy beanie, even just wearing feminine colors works too…such as dusky rose, or cream (which I think is more feminine than White even).

 

This fall and winter one of my goals is to expand my casual wardrobe and create some easy “go to” outfits that I can use when I just need to rip and run.  If you’re a working mum or just a busy professional, you know that sometimes the weekends can seem more busy than during the week and you just need to hurry and grab something quickly to wear…Wearing a hat or beanie can be a great way to save even more time if it’s not the day to wash your hair. During the week when I have appointments or I am dressing more professionally, I tend to style my hair differently than I do at the weekends.  Next week I am going to highlight some current quick and easy “up do’s” that I use when I am in a hurry for weekdays and also how I wear my hair on weekends.

 

When you are choosing your casual outfits, what is something that you won’t sacrifice?  Femininity is important to me…but I also like to choose styles that can be a little edgy by adding some leather and studs…


What if there were NO Rules?

“Courage is being yourself everyday in a world that tells you to be someone else!”

 

If you woke up one day and found out that there were no hard and fast fashion rules that you need to follow…how would that make you feel?

Well, here’s what I would like to tell you – with all the different styles of fashion around, with people taking greater care of themselves and with the different lifestyles everyone leads, there truly are no rules.  We all have different interests, we all love to spend time doing different things, and finally we are all different on the inside as well as on the outside.  Shouldn’t we express ourselves in a way that is true to who we are both on the inside and outside?

Now you know you are free to do whatever you want with your style, I did want to mention that although there aren’t any rules, there are definitely mistakes we can make that may cause us to not look our best, and even worse, things that can age us!

Here are some things you can do that will minimize the aging process and allow us to look amazing even into our later years in life:

  1. Now we’re in fall and winter is around the corner, tights can be our best friend…however, be careful the styles and colors you pick.  Just wearing opaque black with every outfit or wearing nudes are definitely more likely to age you.  Instead, try a pair of patterned, fishnets, different colors or finer opaques to mix things up a little and add a little sass to your look.
  2. Make sure that you dress appropriately for your body type. I always say that just because something comes in your size doesn’t mean that you should wear it.  Wearing clothes that cling in the wrong places, clothes that make you look boxy or even worse something that is too short, is a sure fire way to ensure that you actually look older than you are.
  3. One of the worst things you can do is go shopping and buy an entire outfit that you see on a mannequin.  I have found that it is better to be more subtle with your styling and pick a couple of things that are new and in style rather than going for everything you see.  Remember, the goal is to do what is right for you not what everyone else is doing or what the stores are telling you to do.
  4. Never, never, never get too carried away with accessories.  Just think “less is more” when accessorizing and just in case that isn’t clear, follow the direction of Coco Chanel “When accessorizing always take off the last thing you put on”.
  5. If you are big believer in all things that are Black, don’t despair, you can still do that, but try to add at least a little pop of color to brighten up your complexion.  I always try to add a bright or bold lipstick to my Black outfits…you could also add a cute purse or bag, a contrasting pair of shoes or even a few accessories.

The ultimate goal should always be YOU…

“Be yourself, no one can ever tell you you’re doing it wrong!”


Unleash Your Inner Passion

“Finding your passion isn’t just about careers or money, it’s about finding your authentic self.  The one you’ve buried beneath other people’s needs!”

 

We are all at different stages of our lives, and some things that are immensely important for you may not be high on my list, so there are some things that we are going to focus our energy on, and those are going to be different depending on what stage of life we are in.

I remember when my kids were younger, it took most of what I had to get up and get them ready in the morning, go to a full time job in sales where I needed to push myself to create a living, come home and make dinner and take a bath…there was very little time for anything else.  It doesn’t mean that I wasn’t passionate about doing anything else, it just means there is only so much energy available and it was being expended fulfilling necessary things.  I have always been a very strongly motivated person, and never needed anyone to tell me how much effort I needed to put into anything, because I have to admit, I pretty much don’t work on anything but full speed.

It is certainly easier to unleash your inner passion when you have a little less on your plate, but there is also a way to create space even when you have a full to-do list already.  I have found over the years, that whatever I focus on, that is where I am going to see the most success.  It’s easy to prove – if you try cooking dinner while you are in the midst of completing another task, there is NO focus and chances are you are going to do both things to a mediocre level. Whereas, if you focus 100% on making dinner, chances are you are going to do a better job (unless of course you can’t cook at all, and that then would require a little more practice 😉 )

Do you have something that really excites you?  Something that you haven’t really given the focus that it deserves but you really want to give it a try?

 

 

When I first started this blog I did it because I love style and fashion, and I wanted to help other people see their style potential, and increase their self-confidence, while in the process, focus on something that really excited me.  I don’t profess to know everything about style and fashion, but what I do know is that I am important.  I am important enough to want to create a life where I am not stifling my passion, where I feel good being myself, I am confident, and I love my life.

Along the way I have learned a lot…I have learned what I had no idea I didn’t know!  I learned how to do things I didn’t know were important, I have learned how to be committed to an idea of what I want and follow that passion.  Unleashing your passion could be something as simple as taking up a new hobby, traveling or even just creating an amazing home environment…it all depends on what drives YOU!

If you do have something that you are really passionate about but have been afraid to pursue it, ask yourself this…what is it costing you to give up on your passion?  As you look back on your life will you be happy with all the decisions you made or will you regret not unleashing your passion?  I know the answer for me is that I would be disappointed, and that’s why I chose to let mine out…

What is your passion?  Are you passionate enough about it to let it out?

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